I've Not Written Book To Tear Anyone Down - Earps

Mary Earps says she has not written her book to "tear anyone down" and feels guidance to it has been "distorted".

The erstwhile England goalkeeper, who played a cardinal domiciled successful their Euro 2022 victory, faced backlash from fans and Chelsea leader Sonia Bompastor aft she made comments astir erstwhile Lionesses team-mate Hannah Hampton and head Sarina Wiegman.

Earps' autobiography is released this week but extracts person been published by the Guardian, external.

In nan book, Earps claims she told Wiegman she was rewarding "bad behaviour" by recalling Hampton to nan England squad aft dropping her for being "disruptive and unreliable".

In response, Bompastor said Chelsea's Hampton had shown "class" and she felt Earps had disrespected Wiegman.

"It's been really overwhelming to spot really immoderate things person been distorted a small bit," Earps told BBC Sport.

"I've not written this book to tear anyone down successful immoderate style aliases form. That is not who I americium arsenic a person. This is existent life. It has consequences. It isn't a drama.

"Women's shot has entered into a abstraction that has go a spot for illustration entertainment, truthful your life gets picked isolated for people's amusement sometimes. But it's not amusing, you know?

"I don't deliberation I've thought astir what I wanted nan guidance to be. I'm not surprised, by what I've seen connected my algorithms [on societal media], if I had travel to nan aforesaid conclusions arsenic different group if I'm honest. But that's not what I consciousness I've written.

"I don't deliberation it's a adjacent reflection and I deliberation it's been taken retired of nan entirety of nan context. I speak astir truthful galore different things and it's difficult to spot only definite things being pulled retired and really focused on."

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Earps did not want to remark further connected her history pinch Hampton successful nan question and reply but among a scope of topics successful nan book she discussed losing her spot arsenic England number 1 anterior to Euro 2025 and really that strained her narration pinch Wiegman.

She said it was "not a accelerated diminution successful nan relationship" - conscionable a quality of perspectives and she retains respect for Wiegman.

"There were things that happened successful nan summertime that I wish had happened differently, of course. There's an speech astatine nan extremity wherever she says we're for illustration family. I dream nan sound of this business hasn't changed that," added Earps.

The 32-year-old, presently playing for Paris St-Germain, said she has nary regrets from her profession aliases decisions.

"Hindsight is simply a beautiful point and I would possibly do things otherwise pinch nan accusation I person now, but I don't deliberation I person regrets," said Earps.

"Regrets are difficult because it's outcome-driven. You tin beryllium a leader successful 1 person's eyes and a villain successful another's.

"If you do things pinch integrity and nan correct intentions past I don't deliberation you should person regrets successful life, nary matter what nan result is."

Earps discussed nan bullying she suffered astatine school, stating it was a "really hard" section of nan book to publication again arsenic it brought backmost erstwhile trauma.

"It astir apt planted a seed. I didn't guidelines up for myself backmost past and my life has been astir trying to find that spot to guidelines up for myself," she added.

"I conscionable assumed that group didn't for illustration maine for astir of my life and career. I recovered it really challenging successful squad dynamics because I went successful ever assuming that.

"I was conditioned to consciousness for illustration cipher really cares. I was withdrawn successful that sense. I was utilized to not being liked. If I said past group picked connected maine truthful I conscionable sewage utilized to being quiet."

Those emotions led to panic attacks arsenic Earps says she "felt really misunderstood".

She besides struggled pinch assemblage image and during nan Covid pandemic turned to intoxicant to header pinch worry and depression, arsenic good arsenic restricting her food.

"It was decidedly conscious. For arsenic agelong arsenic I tin remember, speech from nan past fewer years wherever I've had a overmuch healthier narration pinch food, I've ever felt for illustration I wasn't slim capable aliases diversion enough," said Earps.

"I was told I wasn't beardown capable aliases accelerated capable and my assemblage fat was excessively high. To a definite constituent that's OK arsenic I'm an jock - it comes pinch nan territory.

"But it's not bully erstwhile you're not comfortable successful your ain tegument to person your fat pinched and told you request to bring it down a bit.

"I tin retrieve being really young and conscionable not liking what I looked like."

As Earps' occurrence connected nan shot transportation increased, truthful excessively did invites to glamorous events and nan number of photographers that travel pinch it.

"You're successful a room getting each these photos taken and you deliberation 'that was a horrible angle'," she added.

"The measurement you look aesthetically and fuelling arsenic an jock are 2 conflicting ideals. That's difficult for anybody successful nan limelight."

On Friday, Earps told nan BBC she felt "ready and happy to share" that she is successful a same-sex narration pinch her partner Kitty.

She says her clip astatine Wolfsburg successful 2018-2019 helped her spot things differently, and though erstwhile she met Kitty it was "confusing", she is proud of their relationship.

"I don't spot sexuality arsenic linear. I don't explanation things. It's being brave capable to opportunity 'yes, this is my narration and I'm proud of that - I'm not ashamed'," added Earps.

"I person ever tried to support my relationships backstage but that isn't realistic erstwhile you're penning a book of integrity and authenticity."

During nan 2023 Women's World Cup, Earps reveals successful nan book that Kitty had a statement pinch nan goalkeeper's dada aft proceeding "hurtful things" astir their relationship.

Earps worried if her family would ever judge Kitty successful that moment.

"My family mean a awesome woody to maine and truthful does my relationship. There were difficulties we had to navigate but we're done that now, thankfully," she added.

Having a family of her ain has besides been thing successful Earps' mind for a fewer years and she has stiff her eggs for later usage successful fertility treatment.

"It was a crazy, invasive process. I would emotion to beryllium a mum and person a family but I emotion playing football," said Earps.

"Some players spell disconnected and go pregnant which is their correct and they do a awesome job. I would for illustration not to do that. I want to, hopefully if nan beingness allows it, person a kid later down nan line.

"There were a fewer questions that I couldn't answer. You are pumped pinch hormones for X magnitude of days and past you person nan procedure.

"There is wide aesculapian proposal but it would beryllium awesome for location to beryllium investigation astir circumstantial athletes. Is location a definite loading aliases exercises you should beryllium doing? Should you debar definite things?"